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tell me your thoughts on liberty
Sep. 15th, 2010 01:20 amI have been away for some time, and largely hibernating from contact. I wasn't feeling amazing to start with, and circumstances have compounded that, so I am likely to be absent until I get myself together again.
In brief:
1. On Sunday, I made the final decision to quit my degree. I'd been edging towards it for some time and in the end I don't think Oxford is the right place for me. I have other plans made, now, which are still vague and therefore I won't elaborate, but at least I am not dithering around any more. I have made my choice and I am moving on.
2. Some time between midnight and 1am on Tuesday morning, my dog died. She'd had heart problems for a while but was on medication and was doing fine. She had a normal day - went for her walk, hung out with my family in the garden, tried to steal my dad's sandwich - and then collapsed just after her dinner. She was in and out of consciousness for some time, but didn't seem too distressed. My family took her to the vet, who said that there wasn't anything they could do beyond prolong it, so they took her home to let nature take its course. She hung on for a while, and then towards midnight her breathing became increasingly laboured and she started to become agitated. They went back to the vets, and she drifted off to sleep with my family all around her. That afternoon she was cremated with her favourite blanket. I am so, so grateful to have known and loved her, and I wouldn't trade one second of the time I spent with her for anything, except maybe to have her back. She brought me joy when nothing else in the world mattered, and she was and always will be my baby, and it's going to take all of us a long time to get over her.
I hope all of you are as well as you can be, and I apologise for my absence. I'll be around, and back properly when I am feeling better.
In brief:
1. On Sunday, I made the final decision to quit my degree. I'd been edging towards it for some time and in the end I don't think Oxford is the right place for me. I have other plans made, now, which are still vague and therefore I won't elaborate, but at least I am not dithering around any more. I have made my choice and I am moving on.
2. Some time between midnight and 1am on Tuesday morning, my dog died. She'd had heart problems for a while but was on medication and was doing fine. She had a normal day - went for her walk, hung out with my family in the garden, tried to steal my dad's sandwich - and then collapsed just after her dinner. She was in and out of consciousness for some time, but didn't seem too distressed. My family took her to the vet, who said that there wasn't anything they could do beyond prolong it, so they took her home to let nature take its course. She hung on for a while, and then towards midnight her breathing became increasingly laboured and she started to become agitated. They went back to the vets, and she drifted off to sleep with my family all around her. That afternoon she was cremated with her favourite blanket. I am so, so grateful to have known and loved her, and I wouldn't trade one second of the time I spent with her for anything, except maybe to have her back. She brought me joy when nothing else in the world mattered, and she was and always will be my baby, and it's going to take all of us a long time to get over her.
I hope all of you are as well as you can be, and I apologise for my absence. I'll be around, and back properly when I am feeling better.